My best friend<3 Michael Andrew Bahr

The week is coming to an end and I wish in some many ways it wasn't because my best friend Michael is leaving for Iraq. This week has been hard with my Grandpas condition worsening and now on top of it I have to say good bye to one of my closet friends. I knew this day was coming, but it seemed to come so much quicker than I was expecting. Its not the first time I have had to say goodbye to someone serving, but I grew up with him and he has always been there for me when I needed him the most. I love him so much and I know he will return but a whole year is something else. I of course said goodbye to him when he went of to basics, but this is a whole new thing. He is going to be in danger and that worries me sick. The last thing I need right now is for something to go terrible wrong with his mission. Its kind of a funny story when I first met Michael we hit it off right away. There was a definite connection. We were all each other needed to have a fun time. We did everything together, he even played dress up, it was great. We grew older and drifted a bit because we started hanging around other people, although we were still each others best friends. Michael is this big guy who can make anyone laugh and to this day he makes me laugh to the point where its a silent laugh and it hurts, but its a great feeling. As you can tell we grew up together and I can honestly say I have never met and doubt I will ever meet anyone who compares to him...his my best friend. We have had our ups and downs however. WE know everything about each other and we know whats best for each other so when I started dating this guy they got along but then somethings were said by the boyfriend to Michael and he let me know, but I was so into this guy I didn't want to listen. Long story short I should have listened I ended up with a broken heart and I hurt him. The funny thing is the same situation happened to him a few months later. I tried to warn him about this girl he called his 'dream girl' little did he know she was far from it. So we called it even in a sense. So today is his last day here and its been an emotional roller coaster this whole week, but we made a pack to each other so hopefully we can both stick to it. I know we can and there will be obstacles with us being so far away but true friends always find a way and always have each others back. I guess the last thing I have to say is I love you, I'll miss you, and you are truly my best friend. Be safe. <3

This week has been full of ups and downs. I got the most horrible news, but i new it was coming soon. My grandpa has decided to stop treatment and will be slowing fading into a coma. I have been an emotional mess this whole week and it doesn't seem to be getting any better. I've gone over there every day this week because the hospice nursing are saying hes going to be going quicker than expecting. My mind has been all over the place and I have been trying to keep a smile on my face and remain strong because that's what he told me to do. It so hard to seem him in this state, but he has been doing treatment for over two years now and although it seems to be working, he hasn't been himself ion those two years. Hes become very frail and weak, but hes a fighter non the less. I love him so much and I guess this is what he feels needs to e done right now so I commend his decision, although I wish the circumstances were different. I just want to see him smile again and I got to see it the last time I visited him. He was being asked some questions by the nurse and he didn't know the answer because hes a bit confused and he has lost his hearing completely. So when she asked him if he had chest pain he replied I don't know, then turned to me and asked if I knew if he had chest pain he laughed and smiled and I loved it. Its just been hard to see a loved one go through this. However the good thing about this week is I get to go see my best friend up in the cities and hopefully take my mind of things a little bit. I mean he is going to be on my mind no matter what but getting away and being with my best friend will help take some of the pain away. We are going to be going to the Mall of America to do some shopping, which I love. I haven't been to the MOA in years, probably since i was 7 or 8. Its going to be hard though because I don't have any money to spend right now. So window shopping is going to be what I'm doing which is no big deal. Sorry to cut this one short but there's not much more to say. Until next time.

Another weeks gone by...

Another week has past and its been a bit quiet and slow fore me, but this weekend should help pick up the pace. Tomorrow morning my friend and I are getting our second tattoos together. Well I can't say that for sure a 100% it depends on the cost first. These tattoos are very much similar and are in a way a bonding experience together. Since my name is Justine a lot of my friends simply call me J. My friends name is Kayla and i always call her K, so that is why we are getting those letters tattooed on us. Its going to be a bit more then that I'm thinking of getting a heart and music note surrounding my letter because I love music. The placement of this tattoo is a lot tougher for me to choose because I need to have it in a place i can hide due to the career I'm going to be going into but I want to be able to show it off because I believe them to be art work and its something that means something to me; so I wouldn't chose to have it completely hidden. I'm think I want it behind my ear, on my neck, or on my hip bone. Not only am I getting this small and simple tattoo, I'm also getting an estimate for a larger tattoo; which is two hearts that are together yet open. Its hard to explain but the out come is beautiful. Where the two hearts open I'm getting the words love always. This tattoo unlike the others is going to have a splash of color. I'm outlining the hearts in pink, I'm not to big on color tattoos so I think this will be just enough for me. I love tattoos and piercings. I find they as a way of expression and artwork; my parents and grandparents on the other hand don't understand why i want holes and ink on body. My family is very traditional in many ways so when I first got my nose, and belly button pierced they weren't to thrilled. Then I went and got a tattoo on my foot and that was a whole story in itself. I tried to hide my tattoo from my grandma the most because she doesn't even have her ears pierced I knew she wouldn't go for my tattoo. I wore flip flops over there one day and she totally called me out on it; I was a little taken back at first but I explained to her why I had gotten what I did and she agreed it wasn't that bad. I still think she disapproves of it, but I think her saying it was okay for me to have made her feel like she didn't hurt my feelings,which she didn't. I love my grandma and I think she is the cutest lady ever and for her to approve and care so much about something she hates goes to show family is truly amazing which is why I have decided to do the two hearts with love always. One heart is mine and the other is everyone who has touched me in some way and is a party of my life. My friends and family mean the world to me as I had mentioned before. The two heart tattoo is for them but its a bit of a surprise because no one knows I'm getting that one yet, besides all of you reading this now know but that's beside the point. I'll fill you in next time with how the tattoo situation goes down. Until next time. :]

This past week has been a crazy one for me on many aspects. To start off January 31st was the Toby Keith concert. It was my first country concert, however not my first. I had an amazing time with the group of ladies I went with. I attended the concert with my sister and her best friend, and one of my best friends as well. My sister was the only one who had been to a country concert and told us we would have the time of our lives, and that's what we did. Not only did we see Toby Keith but Jason Aldean another one of my favorite country singers. Jason opened the show with and set the bar high, i was thinking to myself how is Toby going to beat that. I thought to soon because Toby literally opened with a bang! Toby performed all of my favorites and so many more. The concert was amazing and everyone not only my group had an amazing time. The fun thing about going to converts is knowing you have something in common with everyone there so its very easy to start conversations with them. There were cowboys and cowgirls all around. We even dressed up like cowgirls. I stood by a older lady who was a spitting image of Dolly Parton, and got a picture with her. The other awesome thing about being at this concert was it was being filmed for one of Toby's upcoming music videos and to be on CMT(Country Music Television). We Happen to have floor seats and were in the last row of the floor seats so the cameras went past us a couple times. We are all hoping we are part of the music video or just on CMT. Either way it will just add to how much fun the concert was. My favorite part of the concert was when Toby came back out for an encore, where he sang his two songs to the men and woman serving our country. It was very touching to me because I know a lot of men and a few girls who are doing their duties and I feel honored to be a part of their lives. They are doing so much for me so I wanted to do something for them. I called each one of them and just held the phone up, its hard to say if they could hear or understand it but I got a few calls later that night from my friends saying thanks and that I actually had tears from one. That made me feel good knowing that they know I care for them and so greatly appreciate what they are doing not just for me, but the country. After Toby sang his last song the concert was over and so was my night. We left the LaCrosse center feeling like we had shoved cotton in our ears. We couldn't hear a thing for a good hour, bu tit was well worth it. Not only couldn't we hear but we couldn't feel our feet after six hours of standing and being in cowgirl boots. Overall this was one weekend and one concert I will never forget. Until next time. :]