This week has been full of ups and downs. I got the most horrible news, but i new it was coming soon. My grandpa has decided to stop treatment and will be slowing fading into a coma. I have been an emotional mess this whole week and it doesn't seem to be getting any better. I've gone over there every day this week because the hospice nursing are saying hes going to be going quicker than expecting. My mind has been all over the place and I have been trying to keep a smile on my face and remain strong because that's what he told me to do. It so hard to seem him in this state, but he has been doing treatment for over two years now and although it seems to be working, he hasn't been himself ion those two years. Hes become very frail and weak, but hes a fighter non the less. I love him so much and I guess this is what he feels needs to e done right now so I commend his decision, although I wish the circumstances were different. I just want to see him smile again and I got to see it the last time I visited him. He was being asked some questions by the nurse and he didn't know the answer because hes a bit confused and he has lost his hearing completely. So when she asked him if he had chest pain he replied I don't know, then turned to me and asked if I knew if he had chest pain he laughed and smiled and I loved it. Its just been hard to see a loved one go through this. However the good thing about this week is I get to go see my best friend up in the cities and hopefully take my mind of things a little bit. I mean he is going to be on my mind no matter what but getting away and being with my best friend will help take some of the pain away. We are going to be going to the Mall of America to do some shopping, which I love. I haven't been to the MOA in years, probably since i was 7 or 8. Its going to be hard though because I don't have any money to spend right now. So window shopping is going to be what I'm doing which is no big deal. Sorry to cut this one short but there's not much more to say. Until next time.